Well, I do know I am VERY late on getting this blog posted! I keep forgetting this blog exists! But I will be doing a lot better with these!
I expect my life to be totally, completley, and utterly changed. What one of my biggest problems is trusting God COMPLETLEY! And by going on this trip, I am doing exactly that. I originally wanted to join the peace corps, but I am going on this trip on account of the countless convictions from God to get my butt to South Africa!!! Don’t get me wrong, I am totally pumped for this, but this wasn’t my original plan. And you know what, I am glad this wasn’t my original plan. Why?! Because just getting accepted and doing the research strengthened my faith because I had no idea what God wanted for me, I just followed his lead…and HERE I AM!
I plan to be challended…in general. I don’t know how, yet, and I can only imagine. This whole team of Godly men and women will be challenged in ways we can’t even comprehend. I think it is exciting what God is expecting from us!
I am the type of person who will do anything to take pain from someone. On this trip, I plan to take the emotional pain of not having Jesus as their Savior from the people. I just feel like I understood Jesus later than I would have liked in my childhood, and these children deserve the opportunity to meet him NOW…and I expect to give that to them. Also, I plan to shower these kids with all the love that God gives me. I’m just going to need to be strong when it comes to that, because I love every person so much and it hurts when they don’t understand that they are already loved!
I plan to be totally molded in God’s hands. I am not sure how he plans to use me, exactly, but I hope he uses me with the children because that is where I am passionate most. I hope my relationship with God is molded, also. I pray that I will learn on this trip, or while preparing for it, to surrender my desires, emotions, life, everything to God and that I will not be afraid. This whole trip is planned, and nothing will be a coincidence, and I need to understand that.
I expect my faith to be tested. Tested while I am raising money for this trip. Tested while I wonder if I can handle the horrible things that happened to the people there. Tested while I am thousands of miles away from my comfort zone. And in many other ways that I can’t think up right now.
And another “silly” expectation I have is having a problem with eating. I am vegetarian. I haven’t eaten beef since I was 15 or 16, or poultry since I was early on 17. I know I have some changes to make in that department, and that my body might have some trouble…but I am just dreading the conversion to eating meat again.
And if you all could keep me in your prayers while I prepare for this trip. I know there are changes happening in me for this trip, and I just would like prayers that by the time I leave here I am the woman God planned for me to leave as.
AND…Thank you, all of you, who are supporting me. You all make my heart smile everytime I log onto my account. And you will be in my heart the whole time I am away because you helped me get there!!
I like the expectation about the meat thing! ( = love ya and praying for you as God gets you ready for this trip
Sweetie, my eyes water up when I read your updates. I am so proud of you and knowing that your “Boss” will be GOD makes my worries a little less.
Cait, you are awesome!!! I will pray for your faith to strengthen, because that’s the toughest of all, and it is what will help you the most!
I love how you mentioned that its already planned. No coincidences. My friend has this theory about God having all of time laid out in front of him watching his words and will come to be. She thinks that when He gets bored he watches Nascar races that haven’t taken place yet and Jeff Gordon wins them all in the future apparently.
This is awesome Cait! Thanks for pointing it out to me! Great job on your initial blog too!
Love you girl and am praying for you!
Scott
You Cait im in awe of how amazing you are it was really great to read about your life and how God has worked in it. Im glad to be in your life and will keep praying for you and your trip to south africa. Lov you
i love you, and im so happy for you and i hope you change lives and make the world a better place. and i believe you will. ill miss you so much, but they need you out there so much more than i do. love you caaaait(:
I re-read this first post.All of your expectations have been met and SO much more. I have tears in my eyes.My tears well up for so many reasons; missing you, proud of you,tears for what you have seen and experienced,tears for innocence lost, for the woman you have become.You are Blessed. God is grooming you for wonderful things. I admire you Cait. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Luv Ya!!